Mood: Confusing.

Assalamualaikum.

 Just now, I felt very confusing.  About  what? I don’t ever know but suddenly my tears drop again and I just feel very deep inside. Dear Allah, please give me strength.  Yeah, something disturbing my mind and then it brought me to remember on very bad moment in my life.  Once again, that’s too much pain.  Sometimes, I feel so weak and always felt the failure is my best friend just now. Why?why?why? Dear Allah again, show me some ways. Show me the truth, show me everything.

Eh, sorry to all readers. Maybe fN mcm ter’Emo’ sikit malam nie. Bukan ape pun, entah kenapa tiba2 dtg satu perasaan yg entah macamana entah buat hati fN rasa sebak, pilu, hiba n whatsoever. Seriously! Eh fN jrg nk sesedih  or kalau sedih pun fN lebih suka pendam. But just now, fN tk tahu nk luahkan kat sapa kesedihan tu. So fN luahkan je la kat blog pink fN nie. Just anggap je dia bernyawa n dgr segala isi hati fN nie. At least hilang sikit beban nie. Yeah, mybe fN trlalu bnyk fikir pasal something, masalah2 yg mnyelubungi even tk sebesar mana pun masalah tuu…or maybe just thinking about someone even I don’t know who n why should I thinking about him. Emm, serabutnya! Fikir macam2 tak tahu lah apa benda yg difikir..:( 

Arghh, sesak rasa nafas nie bila tetiba duduk sesorang mcm nie, then termenung, then keluar air mata..eh eh eh..AIR MATA apa nie..lap balik..lap balik..tskk..tskk..mahalnya air mata yg keluar nie..terlalu mahal jika dikeluarkan pada benda2 yg tk patut kita tangisi. mungkin juga Allah kirimkan suatu perasaan sayu, indah dan hiba itu untuk beringat pada-Nya. Ya, mmg fN rasa mcm2 skrg nie. Subhanallah, nikmat itu bukan sekadar kegembiraan..bila berduka juga nikmat. betapa Agungnya yg MAHA ESA. nikmat ketika sakit, nikmat ketika sedih..Allah s.w.t sentiasa disisi kita..Aminnn..